We have one year old twins!!
Cam & I wanted to do something special, but small to celebrate the lives of our sweet boys. It didn't need to be something over the top, but I just wanted something simple so family & friends could remember for 30 min our twins and how much they mean to us.
The morning of June 20, Cam & I woke up so happy and excited. We went on a walk, went to breakfast, and then ran some errands to get ready for our little celebration. Throughout the day we kept mentioning to each other, "Can you feel them? The boys are with us!" You could just tell those 2 were following us around while we got everything ready for their big day.
In the back of my mind I couldn't help but pause and think of how life might have really been that day if they were still here. I would have hung a cute birthday banner and tied balloons to their two high chairs in our kitchen. We would have two crazy boys crawling around our house and life would have been completely different. But then I snap back to reality and remember what did happen, and not to let myself get sad with the fact that we wouldn't be doing any of that...
We invited our close family and friends and had everyone meet us down at the cemetery. When we sent off balloons at the funeral, we decided it would become a yearly tradition on their birthday. With 50 white balloons and my moms delicious sugar cookies, we took just a minute to remember our boys.
Each of us held a balloon and started singing, "Happy Birthday." I had been fine all day. No tears. But the minute we started singing and our two boys were not sitting right in front of us, but their headstone was, I lost it. My mind immediately raced back to exactly a year ago when we let balloons off at their funeral. I felt so many different emotions. I am a 25 year old mom who is singing to her boys that are buried in the ground. It didn't seem fair for a moment.
Then we let the balloons go. And just like the year before, peace immediately entered my heart and everything seemed right again. We have 2 perfect boys watching over our little boy who is joining our family so soon -- and what is better than that? I held Cam and watched the balloons soar to heaven. Just like the day of their funeral, I felt them standing right by us again. A little more grown up, but still the faces of the sweetest most loving boys that Cam & I were blessed to bring to this world.
Cam & I wanted something besides just pictures to remember the boys birthday. We asked a member of our bishopric who is pro with his GoPro to video us letting go of the balloons. It turned out so good and he captured everything that I was hoping for that moment. It's just a short clip but I am so excited to share it with you!
